15 mars 2009

Sometimes we are in a particular blur situation, however, we see things more clear than ever.

Two yrs ago...

It's been two years, I'm still dreaming here.

Paris Montmartre

Double

café*café à Paris

Shakespeare & co.

rien compris

After one-day hard working on the description of the image, what I knew is nothing. It's like in the old college days, I studied Philo but I badly knew it. Guess I'm soooo bad at reading the abstract stuff.

the end is another beginning

(moi,  à Quimper)

Yep. as the title, I feel like starting another adventure. Life, love, friendship, career? Still no clue. At least what I know is I'm preparing to jump into the water.

On verra.

Life's sooooo goooood

Even though I'm totally useless on my film studies and short of money, I'm still feel life is good in Paris.
Don't know how and why. Just suddenly got such a good feeling on my mind.
Sitting in bed with my cute and pink-dotted quilt is so warm and cozy in this freezing winter of Paris. Of course, my heater is always switched-on.:p (cannot leave this cozy spot)
Plus, I'm feeling like being in a good mood for a good book.

My belly is getting bigger and bigger. Don't know how to fix it and always cover up my face with my hands refusing it's true. So shame, shame, shame. Maybe doing some yoga or sit-up could improve it. But God knows when I will get started? haha

It's time to restart my paper.

Merry christmas and happy new year to all of you.

a safe distance

a safe distance to protect myself...

au fond du ceour

很奇妙，雖還是想念，但卻已忘記上一封信是何時，不再習慣性地數日子，也許是下意識已認定不會有回覆，心一點點死去後，剩下的，僅僅是腦海深處的記憶。

The weepies唱著：

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the World Spins Madly On

很有感觸的感觸，這不正是約莫半年的寫照？常常一起床後，便是默默呆坐床上，憶著遙不可及的...。而如今，到了最後一步，也只能把一切靜置於心底的抽屜，不去開啟，卻依舊在那。

結打開了。

雖偶爾悵然，但總歸是放下了。某種時刻，錯過，便不再回頭。

useless

因為目前法文還呈現很差的狀態，所以上課、寫作業、與同學交流，都覺得自己很無用，但，日子總還是得過下去，所以就盡量努力，不及格也不要再怪自己，畢竟用法文學新的專業（但還是不專），比起其他法國同學，就是吃虧，真的有什麼東西，也表達不出來（攤手無奈），努力，享受過程，結果若很差，也不要再譴責自己了，不然會抑鬱。一個人抑鬱地在寒冷的異鄉，聽起來真不妙。

:(

小王子說：
「…世界上可能沒有像我這樣的人，只為來到這裡，但我看到的什麼也沒有。而只有你，卻忘了我，你真的忙著什麼嗎？…我想，你真的不是一個人，而是一個蘑菇…」

狀態

追趕法文，法文追趕，
隨時隨地，不安。
狀態，曖昧未明，學著與尷尬共處，
法文無法滑順地從嘴裡滑出，
尷尬吞嚥。

遠方，
僅僅世界一隅，
尚無新的「老地方」前，

仍舊，凝視著遠方，暫時。

回首夢已遠

常有感於一直無法從夢中甦醒，那悄然遠去的夢，每當思及至此，已是淚盈滿眶。

so lazy me...

I gotta get rid of a kind of disease called laziness, no excuse no reason.
For becoming a better person, I have to try hard to sleep early and get up as the alarm is ringing.

Being on time to the school. LOL

客套才令人傷神

It's really hard getting over him and move on my life.

juste un ami d'ailleurs

距離能有多遠？
只怕是刻意拉遠的距離，
心的距離。

卡住

很想快些迎接好心情，
像現在，早該確定的事確定不了，該忘的忘不掉，
整個人就像便秘了十年之久，
滿肚子宿便。

啊...原本想抒發心情的，
竟發了一篇狀似大便文。

J'espère le boneur qui va bientôt venir!